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[attr="class","textieno"]Once again, he doesn’t have the mindset of lecturing her for her mistake. Not like the others who have apologized to him. She even explained her reasoning that most don’t really do; admitting about themselves.[break][break]
“At least you admit you’re oblivious. Most tend to make up excuses, or blame the other.” The amount of arguments he has dealt with when it came down to that. Ridiculous, and also pointless. He still won, since they always left in anger, after having nothing else to say because they struggled with thinking about it. Their fault for trying to outsmart him.[break][break]
"I know I can be pretty outrageous sometimes, but I don't like to do so at the expense of others."[break][break]
“So this is why you end up hitting the nerves of others, without yourself realizing it.” He raised a brow at her, “I’m not saying you’re at fault for it, but I’m wondering is that the reason for you to end up in a mess? You’re unaware of one’s being, thus the outcomes turn out atrocious.” His eyes focused on the banana, still needed to be eaten for the hangover to wear off. Ruki took a small bite from it and swallowed after, “Pity. You must really hate having to deal with that.” Though it almost didn’t sound like he’s being all empathetic towards her, he still understood the flaw. He can somehow relate, though he actually is aware of being the thorn to everyone’s side and Jen isn’t, and also he finds it humorous to see one failing at defending themselves, but still hates having to deal with mindless people. Arguing in general however, tiresome.[break][break]
“Honestly, that’s non…” Ruki’s unable to finish his sentence. Technically, it is also her business because Jen is part of the reason. Dismissing her about this question is not going to work. Not this time.[break][break]
He sighed, knowing he’s unable to avoid the question, “The reason for my attempts to forget, is because of that night. Not the whole conversation. Albeit I’ll admit, that was frustrating, but it’s because…” He’s unsure if he can say it to her, or at least, how to say it. He tried so many times to keep distant from Jen, but he didn’t realize that he’s pushing away someone who actually gave him interesting conversations. Nothing that involves errands, or just infuriating arguments all the time, actual conversations where it’s just about themselves. That rarely happens outside of his family for Ruki.[break][break]
“I’ve been contemplating this whole time and it was too the point where I thought I shouldn’t think too much on it, but I did.” he looked around at his room, “And here we are.”
One might call the sound that came from Jen, a self-deprecating laugh, but it was more like a particularly strong exhale, "I mean, I usually make friends pretty easily because I'm not afraid to make the first moves, obviously," she brushed her hair out of her eyes, tucking it behind her ear, "but I guess sometimes that forthrightness does come with its drawbacks too. Gotta take the good with the bad though~"
Although Ruki gave her a somewhat more detailed answer than she expected, it still didn't really tell her a whole lot. So she was at least correct about that night having something to do with it, but it wasn't exactly clear why he was trying to drown the memories in bourbon.
Jen spent a moment pondering on this, her brow furrowed in thought (perhaps he would benefit from the delay, give him a chance to drink some more water, or finish that banana...), and then turned back to him, "What about that night in particular though? I mean... I guess I'm surprised you still wanted to talk to me, since you seemed pretty upset? Like, up until a certain point I knew what was going on, but then like... it was like a switch flipped."
"...now that I think on it, that was really strange. I couldn't for the life of me figure out what had made you react like that," she paused, "I guess whatever set off that reaction, led to this?"
[attr="class","textieno"]“Consider how it was the first time we’ve met, you aren’t. Yes, I know that it’s because of your job but despite that, I can see that you aren’t one to hesitate to break the ice.” It could’ve been worse. Jen could’ve been like the usual who were timid, and were always sorry to make the first moves. If they were sorry to talk, why do so in the first place? It’s a waste of time.[break][break]
While she took a moment to respond back, he continued to drink his water and eat the banana. He didn’t want to be too specific, did he have to be? Does she really want the honest truth out of him. Albeit, he’s honest about it, anyway. It’s just that he’s not giving the full on details about his answer.[break][break]
Like a flipped switch...[break][break]
He glared at her after talking about how much of a surprise it was from his reaction. At least she can figure it out, pretty easily with some vague details. Saves him from having to spell it all out, right?[break][break]
“Affirmative.” Ruki took another sip of his water, the pain had lessened throughout the time. It’s still there and all, but it was bearable. Who is he kidding, there’s more to it than that, “Basically what you said about…” He sighed, “...never mind. Just forget about it.” She’ll figure it out, sooner or later. She tends to do that, from what it seems or at least question it at a later time. Either one.[break][break]
“That switch that you say had flipped, did make me see you more of an acquaintance.” He admits to the dhampir, “But nothing more or less. I have my doubts that it’ll could possibly get any furthers.” Now that he thinks about it, why such curiosity, “Unless you’ve had some thoughts…”[break][break]
Perhaps talking about this is going to be a bad idea.
Jen stared at him for a moment, the gears turning over in her head, trying to remember what she said; then, it hit her. She maintained the gentle tone, though this time she leaned in toward him some, "Do you really not get that at all? That you're interesting to talk to? Was that it?"
If so, she thought, she was again debating if she would be so wrong to feel just a twinge of pity for Ruki.
"I actually do sort of enjoy your company. I don't always appreciate your attitude, but I mean it when I say that almost every time we talk, I walk away with something new to think about."
Acquaintances. Okay, she could live with that; they certainly weren't strangers in any capacity at this point. Not after the conversations they'd had, the level of intimacy they were sharing just by her being in his house, in his bedroom, alone... or even if not for all of that, the bite seemed to get them more familiar with each other than much of their conversation had on its own.
The bite.
"Unless you've had some thoughts..."
Jen wished she could play dumb, to act like she had no idea what he was implying with that word, thoughts; but, she couldn't avoid it. She knew exactly what Ruki meant by that. And she struggled to maintain eye contact, the realization sinking in that, yes, she had had those thoughts. She'd tried to block them out, not let them linger in her mind because they went against everything she thought she felt toward the vampire before her. Yet, despite herself, they whispered in the back of her mind:
His cold caress on her cheek.
His arm around her waist, holding her closer to him than she'd been yet or since.
The groan at the back of his throat as he drank her blood.
Jen looked away for a moment, feeling the slight warmth hitting her cheeks as she did so; she took a breath as she met his eyes again, and with those memories swirling in her brain, she had to fight not to scan his body... not that his face was necessarily unpleasant to look at, but to think that she'd never looked at him with any sort of raw physicality in mind before, was strange to her. Part of her debated on changing that, just this once...
No... keep your composure, Jen.
Though her heartbeat accelerated some as she faced the truth, she answered in a whisper, "...I would be lying if I said I hadn't. I won't deny that you're attractive. But it wasn't what drove me to get to know you, if that's what you're wondering."
[attr="class","textieno"]"I actually do sort of enjoy your company. I don't always appreciate your attitude, but I mean it when I say that almost every time we talk, I walk away with something new to think about."[break][break]
Ruki has no idea what to say on that. Unsure if he should go any further about it, or just accept it, all and all. Of course, the attitude is always the concerning part. That’s everyone with Ruki, not that he cares about it since he doesn’t. Though, to come back to somebody bitter because they made them think about things later; that’s not something Ruki expects. Well, the thinking maybe, but not the whole idea of coming back, again.[break][break]
It took Jen a moment to respond to that, almost hesitation to be specific. She looked away as if there’s trouble to keep the eye contact with him, only to look back at him again but yet, still struggling. Her hazel eyes moved down, not staring at his face. Without answering right away, it can possibly be confirmed that she’s had some thoughts. Not that he didn’t have any, either. He tries to conceal it, and at least not even think about it for a moment. The moment they had together with the bite for a bite. That encouraged some thoughts he shouldn’t have at all.[break][break]
"...I would be lying if I said I hadn't. I won't deny that you're attractive. But it wasn't what drove me to get to know you, if that's what you're wondering."[break][break]
At least that’s a benefit? On both parts?[break][break]
Since she’s spilling the beans, and they’ve been doing this idea where one says one thing and the other does the same.[break][break]
“No, that’s not what I was wondering.” Though at first, that did come to mind. But that was back around the time they first met. The thoughts he was talking about, were different from that sort of. Best not to go any further with it or else, this will be awkward. He takes another sip of his water, “I don’t even know if I could take that as a compliment, however, since you had done your confession. I will say mine.” Unsure if he’s going to regret it or not, the possible outcomes could be anything, “I ask that you listen clearly, because I will not repeat myself ever again about it.”[break][break]
He can’t beat around the bush, and there’s no point of turning back now since he said his word to confess. “Do I admit you can be someone who’s rather...appealing to the eye? Yes, I can say that you are.” He had a feeling that may come back and bite him, someday, “But that’s it.”
Jen wasn't quite sure if she was surprised that Ruki found her attractive or not; that being said, she was still rather flattered at the compliment (as much of one he could be bothered to provide, anyway; take what you could get).
She hummed, letting her foot bounce as she did so, "Admittedly... you're appealing to more than just the eyes..."
Did I really just say that? About him?
A moment of silence came over her, over the room, and she cleared her throat, "Anyway..."
It was rare that Jen found herself in a legitimately awkward situation, but this was one of them. Normally, she had no particular hang-ups about expressing her thoughts, particularly in the realm of the lascivious, but something about Ruki... something about him made her feel strangely self-conscious about these musings in her head.
The memory of that night flashed back to her, and she glanced back to her companion as it processed; the way he'd clasped her, how close their bodies were to one another... though she hadn't thought much about it at the time, she'd gotten the distinct sense that his fangs weren't the only things he'd wished to sink into her.
"...did you need anything else right now? If you don't mind, I was going to go to the bathroom and change into my uniform."
[attr="class","textieno"]"Admittedly... you're appealing to more than just the eyes..."[break][break]
He heard that, correctly. There’s no way he could possibly ignore that for a while. Crueler still, it seems as though she’s been thinking more than just appearance. It’s tempting, yes, to ask more about this. But, that could possibly encourage thoughts that he shouldn’t think about, especially since it involves with her.[break][break]
It doesn’t help that that moment back at the school’s rooftop, when he started caressing her cheek, pushing her hair back to expose her neck, and biting her. Those reactions she gave out to him, her violent shivers, the sudden gasps...and that moan. He remembered the face expression she gave out before she, in return, bit him. The scent of hers now, almost becoming intoxicating. To see that kind of face, again...[break][break]
"Anyway..."[break][break]
“I was going to say that.” He looked away from her, staring again at the water bottle. A slight clutch to it, tightening, and his position of sitting up, straighter as he tries to not think about it, concealing. Why did that thought have to kick in? It’s already going to be troublesome to be forgetful of it when it’s practically clouding his mind, almost. They’re only acquaintances, Ruki knew he shouldn’t be thinking about that. It’s doesn’t help the fact that these thoughts have been going on since the day he had tasted her blood. To get a taste of her, again. [break][break]
Damn it, stop thinking about it.[break][break]
She’s ready to escort herself to the bathroom, spares him being in a much more awkward situation.[break][break]
“No, that will be all, for now. Do what you need to.” He gestured her to head out of his quarters. His pain has been wearing off at least, but he can nearly feel himself heat up. Perhaps drinking more water will do.
"Okay," she stood up again, looking back to finish addressing him, "I shouldn't be too long."
Jen grabbed her bag, which she'd set down shortly after guiding Ruki up to his bed, and quietly exited to the hallway. Again, carefully measured, gentle steps, and she found the bathroom, door slightly ajar to differentiate it from the bedrooms. She double-checked her surroundings, to make sure she was, in fact, alone, then slipped in and closed the door behind her.
In her mind, she knew she would need to make this wardrobe change fairly quickly; who knows when his brothers would wake up, and possibly discover her here? Actually... maybe meeting Azusa, or even the one named Yuma, wouldn't be so bad - it was Kou that she really didn't wish to run into. Still, better not to risk it. Jen stripped her top off, then her shoes, then her skirt, in about a minute flat.
What's going on? Why did I just... freeze when he asked me that?
She pulled the dress slacks up to her waist and fixed the fly. We're just friends, or acquaintances or whatever, right? The black cotton tee she used as an undershirt, went on next, and once it was in place, she tucked it in. I've done friends-with-benefits before. No big deal...
Jen pulled the white dress shirt on, nearly swimming on her in all ways except around her ample bosom, which had necessitated a larger size; her body felt strangely, familiarly, warm, in ways that had nothing to do with the layers of fabric being piled on her. That's not right though. I can't see that with him... why?
One button, two, three and four.
Ugh, I'm making a way bigger deal out of this than I should be...
Tie wrapped around her collar, then pulled into a classic slip knot.
...but what if I'm not?
Jacket on: she adjusted it, adjusted her hair in the mirror, and swiped on some lip balm.
Would I...? Could I?
...with Ruki?
The dhampir took a deep breath, letting out a sigh as she did so, then stood up straighter, as if trying to reassert her self-confidence. However, she muttered, under her breath, "Ugh... that would be so awkward..."
Though Jen had attempted to dismiss this train of thought, it still nagged; it was simply that for now, it seemed to be mere remnants, echoes of what seemed to be a matter most decided. She grabbed her bag, now stuffed with the clothes she'd just changed out of, and returned to Ruki's room.
[attr="class","textieno"]While she’s getting dressed, Ruki attempts to not think about it anything that involves doing any sort of actions upon Jen. Like Hell, that would ever happen. Him and Jen? Preposterous. And yet, he even has said so himself, that she’s just a promiscuous harlot. But she’s not exactly? She can be rather flirtatious, but she’s smart, knows exactly what she’s doing (when she’s not oblivious of things), and can stand her ground while giving out a good argument.[break][break]
Nothing’s going on between them, though. Nothing should happen with those two, they’re only acquaintances. This idea of them even doing so, it should be revolting, laughable and just unimaginable. How can Ruki, who always sees himself more superior than others imagine doing anything like that to Jen, who he still somewhat looks down upon her?[break][break]
Knowing that she’s dressing up for school, Ruki knew he should do the same. There’s plenty of time while she’s getting dressed in her uniform. Hopefully the hangover will wear before school starts, he can’t tolerate with having such a major headache during school hours and let alone, the noise. He drank the rest of the water from the bottle and ate the banana, after. Before he could get out of bed however...maybe it’d be wise to change into his uniform after she leaves the manor. But who knows when that’s going to happen, she could be leaving with him. No she wouldn’t do that, it’s clear that she understood about not making herself known that she was in the premises, in addition with Ruki’s permission. He readjusted himself again in his bed and waits for her to come back. She’s more than likely finished.[break][break]
"Any improvement?"[break][break]
And there she is, returning to his room. Admittedly, because of all these other thoughts, Ruki hasn’t been paying much attention to the hangover he has. It’s like the thoughts of Jen have overwhelmed his mind more than the slight throbbing pain.[break][break]
Jen managed her usual feline half-smile, but it felt somehow... weaker. It was rare that she felt totally disarmed by any single interaction, but while she wasn't surprised that he of all people had managed to do so, the way it had happened threw her totally for a loop.
"Good, glad I was able to help."
Fuck. The atmosphere was so thick, so heavy, it would be imposing if it had been unfriendly, and the silence that ensued only intensified this sensation. Jen didn't dare come closer to the bed - and she had no need to, her bag was slung over her shoulder, Ruki was taken care of, her business was done here - but something in the back of her consciousness whispered, that she wasn't lingering in the doorway because she wanted to.
She clicked her tongue, her ability to hold anything resembling eye contact, crumbling, "...was there anything else you needed from me, while I'm here? You probably still need to get ready for class, and I should get going before your brothers wake up."
[attr="class","textieno"]"Good, glad I was able to help."[break][break]
“Yeah.” That’s almost all Ruki was able to say for now. Considering how the atmosphere is with just the two of them here in his room, it’s rather beneficial for her not to sit in bed with him, again. She seems like she’s ready to go and be on her way.[break][break]
There isn’t much of a point to stay here now, he needs to make sure her scent is gone before his brothers wake up any time soon. More like before Kou wakes up (he usually wakes up the most early to get himself ready).[break][break]
"...was there anything else you needed from me, while I'm here?...”[break][break]
Admittedly, no. She did all that she could to help him through the hangover. She can go on ahead, and get to school while he covers up her scent to prevent discovery. Yet, a part of Ruki wanted to make an excuse for to stick around, just for another moment. No, he can’t do that because there shouldn’t be a reason for him wanting her to stay a bit. It’s nothing, there’s nothing.[break][break]
Besides there’s other things he has to take care of once she goes.[break][break]
“That will be all. I think I can handle everything from here on out.” Ruki moved his legs off the bed, still sitting down. She’s still in here.[break][break]
He didn’t think he’s going to say this, but he has his manners of his own, “Thank you for showing up.”
Admittedly, this caused Jen's brows to raise, her eyes to open a little wider, in a moment of surprise. From anyone else, gratitude would be almost a given, she wouldn't have thought twice about it; but from Ruki, it seemed... strange, dare she even say special?
A vague warmth shot to her cheeks again, though this time, her accompanying quasi-smile was more sincere, felt more like it should - playful, confident, yet inviting. She held her head a little higher now, and answered, "You're welcome. Just be a little more careful next time, 'kay?"
She turned around, and began to reach for the door handle to leave, but before that happened, she looked back over her shoulder, that same grin on her face, "I'll see you in a couple hours then, I suppose?"
Jen's question was more meant to be rhetorical, as she didn't particularly wait around for an answer. She gently turned the knob, and slipped out of the door as quickly and silently as she could manage. However, those nagging thoughts still clawed at her grey matter, and she bit the inside of her lip in a moment of processing, the heat in her face grew more intense as the thoughts of Ruki, of her, of them both... became notably more vivid, more sensuous, more explicit.
I hope I'll be able to concentrate in class... I really don't need this shit to be interfering while I'm trying to take notes...